Success means different for every person...sigh!
well, have had a tough day...cant figure out what went wrong.. dint succeed to embrace success...missed by more than just a margin.. i don't feel good about it.. but do i have an option??? Well, may be i do..
Have been battling with my mind since long...i knew the result somewhere deep down inside my heart..may be i just dint wanna accept it...still believed i can change things & make it different..... Well, no matter what the result...i aint gonna give up..its been a long walk...wont return without the treasure...
i may be sad...upset...disheartened...so wot??? " every dark cloud has a silver lining"..."after night comes day"...it was not my day...but someday it will be mine!!!
till then... ciao...
Monday, June 14, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
last 14 days....
As the days pass...i am feeling all the more nervous & jittery..
14 days to go n suddenly feel a pit in my tummy!!! reminds me of good old school days...the pressure, anxiety, nervousness before the board results are out...
well in my case...my test n result are both on the same day...i dont have too many options this time...so need to make it through the nite!!!!
good luck! :)
14 days to go n suddenly feel a pit in my tummy!!! reminds me of good old school days...the pressure, anxiety, nervousness before the board results are out...
well in my case...my test n result are both on the same day...i dont have too many options this time...so need to make it through the nite!!!!
good luck! :)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Its a long walk ahead...
M nostalgic today...
Somehow i am going back memory lane...school, college, work...its been a wonderful journey...There have been dark & light moments..but then some one rightly said.. " all's well that ends well".
I believe in a saying i once heard some where.. " every child who comes into this world comes with a message that GOD is not disappointed with man"..
i wonder what message i brought or what i am here for..i donno..or may be i may never figure out..but i hope i did have a message along with me..something that can brighten up each ones lives..and not just mine alone..
When i was in school i always looked up to my parents & brother..wanted to be like them..we all did..dint we? it was the best days..struggling with homework, examinations, projects, annual days, sport days and don't knw what not...there was so much in store..come back from school and just run to mom n tell her all the stories..Phew! there was no end to the story telling...i in fact used to get yelled at..not for my story telling.. but coz while i was busy story telling..ma was staring at my soiled uniform, shoes, and bag...she always wondered if i was cleaning the school or did i even bother to sit through any class and learn something..The best was when she used to check my bag...there were tremendous treasures in my goodie bag... hee hee... lemme help you with some of them... i never believed in throwing waste paper in my school's dustbin..(actually ...there wasn't any dustbin..i dint see any..) so i carried it home :D ...n then there were some lovely hobbies i had..not many know but i love collecting stones..i have a collection of them.. so my bag was always filled with stones..if the bag had to ideally weigh 3kgs..i made sure i weighed 5kgs and tore it quiet often..not my fault..i dont knw how it happened.. hee hee.. no wonder i changed bags every quarter.. :)
Awwh! those days were fun.. The time when i was in class X..my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." then came class XII n yet again my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." i gave my best..the only year round when i did study and studied endlessly.. guess wot! i lost weight in the bargain too..never did it ever happen again..not studies..just losing weight!!!! :P kidding!!!
Then came...
College...woops! who said i dint have to work hard to clear semesters or get accounting in my head.. it was hard work..just that you dint have to dress up in a uniform and get to class.. those were the days of jeans, tees, & floaters.. (ACG floaters) lol...
Presentation were the only time we dressed up to our best..smart & savvy professionals.. hee hee... :P Excuse me! We did do a good job at putting up the presentations.. after all..as my brother told me during XII the same was repeated even here..." Just this time & life will be as u want"..here i go again did all..worked hard...excelled!!! n now....Sigh!!!
Finally..i graduated...m working..
Yippie!!! nothing better could i have ever imagined...
Working, independent, new city, new friends, new avenues, new life... just the way i wanted..all was in control..i took control of my life...wow!!! i did it, i did it, i did it...actually...no.. i forgot i cant control my life..i can only choose from the options i have.. hmmmm...now...i am back to where i started from...i love my brother's dialogue.. "" just this time...bla bla bla.."" i am not satisfied..i QUIT...i QUIT my independence...
N now here i am again following ancient dialogue...i'l give it my best shot...lets c what's in store for me in the magic box!!!! i look fwd to the future..m sure it will be as blissful as it has always been.
Somehow i am going back memory lane...school, college, work...its been a wonderful journey...There have been dark & light moments..but then some one rightly said.. " all's well that ends well".
I believe in a saying i once heard some where.. " every child who comes into this world comes with a message that GOD is not disappointed with man"..
i wonder what message i brought or what i am here for..i donno..or may be i may never figure out..but i hope i did have a message along with me..something that can brighten up each ones lives..and not just mine alone..
When i was in school i always looked up to my parents & brother..wanted to be like them..we all did..dint we? it was the best days..struggling with homework, examinations, projects, annual days, sport days and don't knw what not...there was so much in store..come back from school and just run to mom n tell her all the stories..Phew! there was no end to the story telling...i in fact used to get yelled at..not for my story telling.. but coz while i was busy story telling..ma was staring at my soiled uniform, shoes, and bag...she always wondered if i was cleaning the school or did i even bother to sit through any class and learn something..The best was when she used to check my bag...there were tremendous treasures in my goodie bag... hee hee... lemme help you with some of them... i never believed in throwing waste paper in my school's dustbin..(actually ...there wasn't any dustbin..i dint see any..) so i carried it home :D ...n then there were some lovely hobbies i had..not many know but i love collecting stones..i have a collection of them.. so my bag was always filled with stones..if the bag had to ideally weigh 3kgs..i made sure i weighed 5kgs and tore it quiet often..not my fault..i dont knw how it happened.. hee hee.. no wonder i changed bags every quarter.. :)
Awwh! those days were fun.. The time when i was in class X..my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." then came class XII n yet again my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." i gave my best..the only year round when i did study and studied endlessly.. guess wot! i lost weight in the bargain too..never did it ever happen again..not studies..just losing weight!!!! :P kidding!!!
Then came...
College...woops! who said i dint have to work hard to clear semesters or get accounting in my head.. it was hard work..just that you dint have to dress up in a uniform and get to class.. those were the days of jeans, tees, & floaters.. (ACG floaters) lol...
Presentation were the only time we dressed up to our best..smart & savvy professionals.. hee hee... :P Excuse me! We did do a good job at putting up the presentations.. after all..as my brother told me during XII the same was repeated even here..." Just this time & life will be as u want"..here i go again did all..worked hard...excelled!!! n now....Sigh!!!
Finally..i graduated...m working..
Yippie!!! nothing better could i have ever imagined...
Working, independent, new city, new friends, new avenues, new life... just the way i wanted..all was in control..i took control of my life...wow!!! i did it, i did it, i did it...actually...no.. i forgot i cant control my life..i can only choose from the options i have.. hmmmm...now...i am back to where i started from...i love my brother's dialogue.. "" just this time...bla bla bla.."" i am not satisfied..i QUIT...i QUIT my independence...
N now here i am again following ancient dialogue...i'l give it my best shot...lets c what's in store for me in the magic box!!!! i look fwd to the future..m sure it will be as blissful as it has always been.
Cheers to the wonderful moments...!!!!
love,
Appu
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