Ho Ho Ho..MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Merry Christmas!

25'December 2010, a day in my life i shall always treasure...

Frankly, i did not quiet think the day will turn out the way it did. 24th morning.. i was hoping like the many years to be excited and filled with enthusiasm. But it was not. I was low when i woke up. Was already ailing with viral for a week; On the verge of recovery but throat just did not cooperate. To top it all, i had the worst dream i ever had and cant seem to forget the details of my dream.. I'd like to call it a night mare!!! I have woken up crying from my dreams..but this was worst than them all..

I was a complete zombie when i woke up this morning. I wanted to go some where far; be to myself; may be take a walk along the beach or so... [I do get into such phases and modes..especially when its the least expected out of me on an eventful & happy day.. :( ] To top it all, woke up to a bad news... rather now after some hours i will call it sad news..

This Christmas was special not just for the Telangs as we had Baby Trisha join the gang..But we had one of my brother's close friend's family here..(its like one big family). I'd like to say, we are a family of 7 now & not just 5. The sad news was that bhaiya had to leave us for India for some important and urgent issues.. Already the sad that i was...now i was even worse. [Was hoping midnight would brighten me up..nah! not after knowing all the plans are scrapped..the news was such..]

Anyways, after a few hours of my morose self..and observing everyone doing something or the other..and ma busy embroidering Trisha's dress with "MY FIRST CHRISTMAS"..I was woken up from my state when bhabhi reminded me of Trisha's socks.. oops! i had to sew frills on to them.. Realized the plans were not fully gonna be scrapped! :) Not like i was charged up at the thought of putting up Red frills on baby's socks..but at-least i was feeling some life getting back into me...Although i kept thinking..."does it make one bit sense to share happiness?"..considering the morning's experience.. I was annoyed with people...People love to know what's happening in the others life but Bloody can stand them happy ever.. the moment a person is happy there are 500 people to ask.."dude! y r u so happy?" ...I just have one thing to say to those annoying unenthusiastic ones..."boss..get a life! if u can't be happy in some one's happiness or excitement..then bloody well dont spoil it either... just ignore the happiness u see around and continue to brood like u do..." [bunch of jerks!]

Anyways, the excitement was coming back among all, especially when Ajay & Mamma went shopping for tomorrow's lunch & dinner special grocery shopping.. ;)
[the original plan was...
Lunch: Pasta, Fish Fry, Veg cutlets, Cake, & Wine
Dinner: Chicken Barbecue, veg barbecue, marshmallows, bread & wine]
The plan got revised now that one member was less..just instead of barbecue..we'll be going out for a buffet after roaming a few places! :P while the chicken got transferred to my department for my experiments.. ;)

Bhabhi & J di were busy preparing cakes. I decided to help them out. Made the Tofu special dinner ;) (ok! M not blowing my own trumpet...Okay! Honestly...But yeah its true that i have always been an emergency scenario cook & additional help...i only cook or help when every one else is busy with something equally important ! :D)

So Here is how i came back to life...
During dinner i was told we are going for mid night service.. that did the trick... now i knew there's gonna be cake & wine toasting & the secret Santa gifts opening....
I was all happy.. i like going for mid night masses.. there's much more enthusiasm & excitement among people even at church...after all, when we can stay awake at 2400hrs for our own bday and njoi every moment of it..then y not Christmas.. (truth: i hate getting up early morning to go to church)
I was dolled up..the mass was superb..sermon was good..St. Anne Church, Bukit Mertajaya @ 22:30hrs.. mass got over at 2400 hrs sharp..The crib was beautiful... the church is an ancient old church..wished each other...lots of christmas carols...simply WOW!!! [Malaysians are very happy & docile people..they need not know you to wish you or smile at you.. i like it! :)]...

As per plan it was time for us, to get back home..it was secret santa gift & cake-wine time. We opened the wine bottle...toasted to Trisha, Health & prosperity for all...grabbed on some kusvars..and all set to open the gifts.. We were excited..& anxious to know what we were all getting from our respective secret santas... lol..it was fun...25yrs + and we looked 5 years old...mom & dad were the smallest kids among us i guess... I have never seen this much excitement or craze among any of us over christmas and gifts ever.....

To our surprise, although we missed bhaiya.. we enjoyed the gift opening...the secret santas turned out funny but weirdly interesting. Here's the list:

• Ma's was me
• Dad's was Ajay
• Ajay's was bhabhi
• Bhabhi's was Dad
• Mine was Ma
• Bhaiya's was J Di
• J Di's was bhaiya...
• and we all were Trisha's secret santa.. ;)

Guess what..although i had Mamma as my secret santa, it turned out that i had many more secret santas....hurray! i got loads & loads of gifts.. :P

I like getting gifts..though i dont get any.. :( so tis time i was second in line after Trisha.. :P
Feels good to be getting gifts and loved so much even now... :)
Vaise i got others gifts too...from what ever i had saved..its not yet pay back time for me...but i have my accounts well kept...I will pay back soon...

And here's a toast to my family & extended family... I love u all & thank u for this day.. it feels good! & the best news is...all's well at bhaiya's end too back in India..

So here's to love, health, & prosperity!
MERRY CHRISTMAS & a very happy & prosperous new year.... :)

Till then.....Ciao

Love,
Appu

2:40 AM 'n' wide awake....

Its 2:30 AM & i am wide awake! ...Afterall, its Christmas!!!!

Christmas has been my all time favs. After high school when the family invariably used to spend every festival together...Its only christmas & new year that brings us home...to family!

This year is even more special..we have baby Trisha (my lil niece) joining us hence forth...M so thrilled..so excited...

Few hours more and ...yippie! MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

anxious to know who my secret santa is...n what santa's got me...

Phuleezee santa phuleezee...get me what i want.. i dont ask for a lot..just couple of importants things in life...i knw u can hear me some where & can get me my tiny lil things...Pleaseeeeeeeeee!!! :P

Love,

Appu

My fav Video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SLu_UK_MpfA

My Bon Voyage-8.12.2010

Every day is a new day here...with new experiences and funny moments... What better to start with than the Bon voyage i had... So here's a narration of my victorious voyage to Pinang...I hope u have fun reading it.. not like i was super excited or was having one bit of fun going through the trip..but thinking of it now..i kinda enjoyed it..I guess!!!! ????? :)

Okay.. so here's how my journey began...
I reached airport..and dont know why but it dint quiet seem my usual self at the rate i was dropping evrything i held.. Started with my phone.. dropped it a zillion times.. went to check in and there was this huge line in the only 3 counters that were open for AK224 to KL.. tried figuring out what was happening and after lot of observation realised the crowd was of some tour group called silverline or something... it apperaed more as a bihar railway station..the noise, chaos, hustle-bustle...laugh..excitement..everything which had not observed at an airport so far!!!!
Anyways after waiting for like a good 50 mins i got my turn to be the next to check in..when an old malaysian aunty..as she claimed though she dint quiet look any bit old...especially looking at her lugagge and strength to carry it...nah! but she barged through and went before me..i was cheesed off by then..n the only thing she spoke was something only she possibly understood as a reason to cut the line and go ahead...cause i dint get understand a wordof what she said..
Finally! Moved on..and I was checking in. When the person at the counter was curious to know how i lived in so many places...considering my passport bearing lucknow & hyderabad..and i was travelling to pinang... so dealt with it..but the person was the only happy face ..so answered him..and decided to hv breakfast...
I was terribly hungry by the time i completed stage 1 of operation KL... :) " believe it or not" but in the 5 mins to find myself a place to sit & hv my breakfast & also pick up a book for the planned 6 hr wait that was scheduled at KL ...i dropped my ticket several times...my phone another 2 times..n finally my bag also...( I think i had butter fingers that day...)

It was 8:15 by the time Stage 1 got over. I thought i could proceed towards immigration as my boarding pass mentioned an 8:25 boarding time... Going by my instincts i thought the tour group would hv been done with their immigration as they had all proceeded immediately for immigration after checking in.. To my good/bad luck they were only 3 counters functioning at the immigration check. And thus, the tour group were still in "Q"
Figured out one counter where i dont knw why not much crowd was there..so i decided will head there.. Only after standing in the line for 5 mins more i realised the officer was slow...anyways, i was happy my chance came much earlier than expected...& guess wot...now i knw why the officer was taking time to stamp the passport.... coz he was dozing off while checking the passports...n m not at all exxaggerating... i was smiling looking at him doze..only when his head would jerk out of lack of balance did he wake up... hee hee.. it was funny...

Immigration was done..and i proceeded towards the boarding gate... Was enjoying observing people... especialy the tour group people.. they clicked pictures in front of evrything possible..that to single pose pictures... the gate, the immigration counter, the check in counter, the mannequins standing near the shops after the immigration was done... just about anything... i found it hilarious though i could understand the excitement they would have had about travelling over seas... but i had to pass my time and find some entertainment for myself and thus those people seemed the best!

The boarding started late..at around 8:55AM. everybody rushing towards the gate...i was among the first 5 to 6 who boarded first...actually, i am generally the last one to enter but going by already noticing my co-passengers i thought it wise to board first and not risk chaos later.. Everyone boarded. Air hostess had no space to move around or close the cabinets considering the tour guys dint knw wher to be seated and thus wer busy clicking pics standing in the aisle... Finally their tour guide came and alloted seats...2 of the comparatively quiter ones were sitting besides me.. 2 the tour guide and 2 other men sat in the hot seats...Air hostess came and requested the 3 of them to get up and sit in their respective places...chinki hostesses..the guys said "yes yes" and continued to sit... (i presume they did not understand the lady due to the chinki accent).. after some time again the lady came & requested them to get up...bt that time the main flight steward had announced that seats 2-5 & 12-14 are hot seats and only those with its tickets are allowed to sit ther.. the 3 guys continued saying "yes yes... ok ok"..n kept sitting...ha ha ha...

Finally, the ladies must hv told the steward and so he came to spk to the guys.. again let me tell u the steward was also a chinki guy with an accent which definitely...mmmm..i hope u get my point! am sure u can imagine the plight of the men & the cabin crew.... i was seated at 15F..so was the nearest to understand wht was happening.. the flight took off..stage 2 got over but the crew could make the 3 men understand why they had to get up and take any other seat but the hot seats..couple of the 3 men's frnds asked what was the conversation all about & all they said was... " nothing yaar...no one is allowed to sit near the emergency exit doors..." the whole group of men bursted out laughing at the silliness of the cabin crew... it was too annoying and chaotic..so finally after an hour of their discussion and laughing i told my co-passenger that those seats are paid and his frnds continue to sit ther then they need to pay over and above the already paid amount... That's when those men got up and changed their seats...only to sit in another hot seat... Finally after a lil more hard work the crew was able to move the men out from those seats and get them to sit in their respective seats...
I was so glad they'l be some peace & i can sleep....but i was wrng..the group of men started yapping..cracking jokes..evrything in the most audible manner that their whole group could hear them loud & clear...

I was hungry again.... n luckily we were being served meals...so all happy we were eating our food when it was announced that we have to land for refuelling... To our surprise..we were landing in Kolkata... dint understand why nor have got to knw why that happened...we were clearly told by the pilot it wud be a 30 mins stop over...butt then the stop over dint stop for over 2 hrs and 30 mins...sometimes we wer being updated stating that fuelling is taking time..sometimes it was about paper work...which never seemed to finish.....dint knw wht was happening... but i started feeling sick..AC was swtiched off... while the door was open..though no body could get off...n to top it all the person sitting in front of me took off his shoes...n they were stinking....i thhought i'l inform the air hostess and tell i want to go out...just then the doors were shut and we were taking off...It was here that the group of men clapped with delight oif taking off again...some wher a sarcasm for the crew i think... felt like i was back to college...
By this time i was feeling completely ill and horrible. and ......i was hungry too... ... but coz i was not feeling well i slept off....

I woke up at Indian time 4 PM...and it was a sight to c..the clouds were amazingly beautiful...and i assumed we were gonna reach by 7:30 PM malaysian time...with that thought...i was busy guessing when am i gonna c the clouds getting dark and how they get dark...from the hot sun..to dull clouds...with clouds with silver linnings...to clouds that looked like dark fumes...also..frm sky blue..to dark blue...to red..to orange... to black....i loved it all... It was during this time that the steward announced we would be arriving at 8:10 PM malaysian time... he took the names of all those peoples who had connecting flights and said the ground crew will help..finally we landed....and we had our super excited group of men clapping the second time... i was restless...back was aching and stomach was hurting out of hunger...

I was among the first to rush out as my connecting flight was at 9:55PM..i reached immigration only to find huge slow lines...found one line tht was small so went n stood there..but to my bad luck...the officer was actually very slow and thus the line was not moving... i saw and officer and requested him to help me out but he did nothing...i was irritaed by then...finally i got my chance at 9:05PM... she took another 5 mins..
ran frm immigration to baggage counter ....only to find my baggage's main lock not present...dint quiet think much about it... i took my bag and rushed to the domestic terminal... couldn't find a single air asia person to ask for help...some how managed to find ONE air asia person...was glad he helped me by atleast telling me wher i should go for checking in...finally checked in at 9:30PM... then ran towards boarding...only to find out 5 mins later that the flight was late by 10 mins....anyways... i was not in the right frame of mind...was very irritated...hungry...and tired... I found some fruit salad so was a bit happy after that...n to clam myself i started listening to music...

Hurray!!! i reached penang finally after 8.5 hrs.......................... wht do i call the journey!!!! ???
Here i am..in La La Land... :P

ok la! nw i go la... ;)

don knw wot's btr..being dead...or brain dead!!!!

"We always believe our first love is our last,
and our last love our first.

Love waits for one thing, the right moment.

Loving you was easy, losing you was hard.
Loving you is still easy,
but knowing you are no longer mine,
is the hardest of it all.

Heavy hearts,
like heavy clouds in the sky,
are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

Woman's happiness begins with her first love and ends about then.

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love,
all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken,
it takes a while to get everything back together."

love is powerful, insane,...no words can ever explain it... losing it is even worse... the funny thing is before u ever were in love..we loved ourselves..day in and day out... but when tht one person comes..we neglect ourselves for the love of tht person in our life...a relation of more that 20-25 yrs with oneself goes down the drain for that one person...:) but no doubt! the love shared is more happiness giving than the one lived alone loving oneself!

It reminds me of a famous line from one of my favorite movies...P.S I love you...

"Patricia: I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.."

No wonder ppl say.."its better to have loved and lost than never loved at all"..

Those few moments spent can make u or break u!!! its that powerful... as a matter of fact it is perspective.. i have seen many who loved n lost it..i saw them fall apart...they were like the broken pieces of glass joined together.. it was one of the most horrid moments i encountered... never wished to go thru it..but dont knw wot's in store for me..so its better i keep mum than even utter the slightest word n get hit hard!!!

I believe in LOVE...i love LOVE stories...I LOVE love...i want to be in LOVE forever....

it doesn't have to be a person...love has different forms... I want to be loved...feel loved..feel the happiness..sadness..agony that love brings with it..after all, i cant ask for just a part of it...if i get it...it better be wholesome...

if it has to be a person..then it better be the one who knws me..............."Nobody in the world makes me laugh the way you do. You're my best friend. I just wanna be with you........."

wow! now i need a break...to think sanely... before i close here..i'd just have one thing to say.. " I don wanna make any mistakes"

P.S I love You

Appu

Fantod....

feels horrible today! After a long time though.. just want my normal self back...I knw m not that good..but still at-least m not all that bad either...(just trying to make my self feel btr i guess! good attempt though!!! :( )

I have so many mixed emotions..i just cant understand or figure them out!!! just that i am fantod!!!!
wonder why relations exists?why are we humans forever so dependent? why do v get attached to things? aren't we way too social??? to the extent that we hurt ourselves when we least expect.

Well...accidents, surprises, or guess anything at all never knocks before coming our way..
accidents bring misery...for the lucky some eventually a learning..
surprises..may b good or bad...GOD knows!
anything...is the worst thing....TOO FATAL!!!

well, i dint face an accident or get a surprise or anything...but i did get into something that has the potential to hurt me today! i wish i could Compartmentalize this the way i do for anything else that comes my way..

A very close friend once told me, " hobbies are good, habits are not". I should have given that thought serious consideration..Feels like an addict nw.. hey hey!!! don run ur horses so much... had no vices, have no vices... and as if for now..not planning on having any either.. jus tht too much of anythng is also called an addition..aint it??? n when u dont get it??? BINGO...its a fantod!!!

phew! i feel mentally sick right now..not making any sense..penning down nothing but crap..
no wonder i resort to writing so i can just blabber crap!!! :) and feel better! coz no one on the face of earth can victimize ones ears for me ...not atleast today!!!

whew! not like am feeling good or anythng right nw..but i guess i jus wanna go somewhere and get my freaking head to rest and think sensibly senseless...than the present state of crap!

WHATEVER!!!

Success means different for every person...sigh!

well, have had a tough day...cant figure out what went wrong.. dint succeed to embrace success...missed by more than just a margin.. i don't feel good about it.. but do i have an option??? Well, may be i do..

Have been battling with my mind since long...i knew the result somewhere deep down inside my heart..may be i just dint wanna accept it...still believed i can change things & make it different..... Well, no matter what the result...i aint gonna give up..its been a long walk...wont return without the treasure...

i may be sad...upset...disheartened...so wot??? " every dark cloud has a silver lining"..."after night comes day"...it was not my day...but someday it will be mine!!!

till then... ciao...

last 14 days....

As the days pass...i am feeling all the more nervous & jittery..

14 days to go n suddenly feel a pit in my tummy!!! reminds me of good old school days...the pressure, anxiety, nervousness before the board results are out...

well in my case...my test n result are both on the same day...i dont have too many options this time...so need to make it through the nite!!!!

good luck! :)

Its a long walk ahead...

M nostalgic today...

Somehow i am going back memory lane...school, college, work...its been a wonderful journey...There have been dark & light moments..but then some one rightly said.. " all's well that ends well".

I believe in a saying i once heard some where.. " every child who comes into this world comes with a message that GOD is not disappointed with man"..

i wonder what message i brought or what i am here for..i donno..or may be i may never figure out..but i hope i did have a message along with me..something that can brighten up each ones lives..and not just mine alone..

When i was in school i always looked up to my parents & brother..wanted to be like them..we all did..dint we? it was the best days..struggling with homework, examinations, projects, annual days, sport days and don't knw what not...there was so much in store..come back from school and just run to mom n tell her all the stories..Phew! there was no end to the story telling...i in fact used to get yelled at..not for my story telling.. but coz while i was busy story telling..ma was staring at my soiled uniform, shoes, and bag...she always wondered if i was cleaning the school or did i even bother to sit through any class and learn something..The best was when she used to check my bag...there were tremendous treasures in my goodie bag... hee hee... lemme help you with some of them... i never believed in throwing waste paper in my school's dustbin..(actually ...there wasn't any dustbin..i dint see any..) so i carried it home :D ...n then there were some lovely hobbies i had..not many know but i love collecting stones..i have a collection of them.. so my bag was always filled with stones..if the bag had to ideally weigh 3kgs..i made sure i weighed 5kgs and tore it quiet often..not my fault..i dont knw how it happened.. hee hee.. no wonder i changed bags every quarter.. :)

Awwh! those days were fun.. The time when i was in class X..my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." then came class XII n yet again my brother told me.." give it ur best shot and then u dont have to do anything.." i gave my best..the only year round when i did study and studied endlessly.. guess wot! i lost weight in the bargain too..never did it ever happen again..not studies..just losing weight!!!! :P kidding!!!

Then came...

College...woops! who said i dint have to work hard to clear semesters or get accounting in my head.. it was hard work..just that you dint have to dress up in a uniform and get to class.. those were the days of jeans, tees, & floaters.. (ACG floaters) lol...

Presentation were the only time we dressed up to our best..smart & savvy professionals.. hee hee... :P Excuse me! We did do a good job at putting up the presentations.. after all..as my brother told me during XII the same was repeated even here..." Just this time & life will be as u want"..here i go again did all..worked hard...excelled!!! n now....Sigh!!!

Finally..i graduated...m working..

Yippie!!! nothing better could i have ever imagined...

Working, independent, new city, new friends, new avenues, new life... just the way i wanted..all was in control..i took control of my life...wow!!! i did it, i did it, i did it...actually...no.. i forgot i cant control my life..i can only choose from the options i have.. hmmmm...now...i am back to where i started from...i love my brother's dialogue.. "" just this time...bla bla bla.."" i am not satisfied..i QUIT...i QUIT my independence...

N now here i am again following ancient dialogue...i'l give it my best shot...lets c what's in store for me in the magic box!!!! i look fwd to the future..m sure it will be as blissful as it has always been.

Cheers to the wonderful moments...!!!!

love,
Appu