Saturday, August 21, 2010

don knw wot's btr..being dead...or brain dead!!!!

"We always believe our first love is our last,
and our last love our first.

Love waits for one thing, the right moment.

Loving you was easy, losing you was hard.
Loving you is still easy,
but knowing you are no longer mine,
is the hardest of it all.

Heavy hearts,
like heavy clouds in the sky,
are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

Woman's happiness begins with her first love and ends about then.

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love,
all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken,
it takes a while to get everything back together."


love is powerful, insane,...no words can ever explain it... losing it is even worse... the funny thing is before u ever were in love..we loved ourselves..day in and day out... but when tht one person comes..we neglect ourselves for the love of tht person in our life...a relation of more that 20-25 yrs with oneself goes down the drain for that one person...:) but no doubt! the love shared is more happiness giving than the one lived alone loving oneself!

It reminds me of a famous line from one of my favorite movies...P.S I love you...

"Patricia: I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.."

No wonder ppl say.."its better to have loved and lost than never loved at all"..

Those few moments spent can make u or break u!!! its that powerful... as a matter of fact it is perspective.. i have seen many who loved n lost it..i saw them fall apart...they were like the broken pieces of glass joined together.. it was one of the most horrid moments i encountered... never wished to go thru it..but dont knw wot's in store for me..so its better i keep mum than even utter the slightest word n get hit hard!!!

I believe in LOVE...i love LOVE stories...I LOVE love...i want to be in LOVE forever....

it doesn't have to be a person...love has different forms... I want to be loved...feel loved..feel the happiness..sadness..agony that love brings with it..after all, i cant ask for just a part of it...if i get it...it better be wholesome...

if it has to be a person..then it better be the one who knws me..............."Nobody in the world makes me laugh the way you do. You're my best friend. I just wanna be with you........."

wow! now i need a break...to think sanely... before i close here..i'd just have one thing to say.. " I don wanna make any mistakes"

P.S I love You

Appu

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Fantod....

feels horrible today! After a long time though.. just want my normal self back...I knw m not that good..but still at-least m not all that bad either...(just trying to make my self feel btr i guess! good attempt though!!! :( )

I have so many mixed emotions..i just cant understand or figure them out!!! just that i am fantod!!!!
wonder why relations exists?why are we humans forever so dependent? why do v get attached to things? aren't we way too social??? to the extent that we hurt ourselves when we least expect.

Well...accidents, surprises, or guess anything at all never knocks before coming our way..
accidents bring misery...for the lucky some eventually a learning..
surprises..may b good or bad...GOD knows!
anything...is the worst thing....TOO FATAL!!!

well, i dint face an accident or get a surprise or anything...but i did get into something that has the potential to hurt me today! i wish i could Compartmentalize this the way i do for anything else that comes my way..

A very close friend once told me, " hobbies are good, habits are not". I should have given that thought serious consideration..Feels like an addict nw.. hey hey!!! don run ur horses so much... had no vices, have no vices... and as if for now..not planning on having any either.. jus tht too much of anythng is also called an addition..aint it??? n when u dont get it??? BINGO...its a fantod!!!

phew! i feel mentally sick right now..not making any sense..penning down nothing but crap..
no wonder i resort to writing so i can just blabber crap!!! :) and feel better! coz no one on the face of earth can victimize ones ears for me ...not atleast today!!!

whew! not like am feeling good or anythng right nw..but i guess i jus wanna go somewhere and get my freaking head to rest and think sensibly senseless...than the present state of crap!

WHATEVER!!!